it's magic! but to cm, it's called wires... anyway, my comp can do a lot of things now!


it sure feels like magic to me.. =) but now there's a bunch of wires behind the monitor and they look pretty scary..

tml's sat but gotta work.. T_T gotta go interview students for EAGLES awards.. sian.. shdn't haf told them i was from co.. now every year oso kenna roped in to interview them.. machiam i have a lot of experience.. but they dunno i oso juz "muck in water grab fish" one.. lolz..

Today marks the 3rd yr anni for us.. but it was a tiring day for the both of us.. it's my late shift day, plus lots of things on my urgent list.. zzz.. and he got test till very late.. so i couldnt take leave and altho he normally ends at 4.. today he ended late too cuz of mid-term test.. and then, his car couldnt start n he had to go ard asking for ppl to help jumpstart his car.. den went to recharge his batteries den coming to meet me... sigh it was a long day.. and i was also stuck at office with lots of things to do..

but in the end, we finally met~ and he managed to squeeze some time to buy presents for me! Godiva chocs.. so yummy n smooth n rich chocolate..

i think he bot it for me cuz i always say i wanted to try but so ex so nv really went to buy any..

i need to get him a present too.. but i really had no time to go out n look for present.. so sad.. but here's a photo of a gift that i gave for his bday or smthg... the wallet in the background was a gift from me too~~ =D altho he aleadi worn the leather out, button dropped and evrything.. he is still using it~ the watch is from fossil..

realli treasuring this long weekend as after this i probably won't be able to relax until end of Nov.. year end is a really stressful period..

anyway, ytd we had brunch at the amk hawker centre.. the big big one which used to sell AJ ice.. had the pontian wanton noodles.. love it~~~~ noodles very Q and wanton very soft~~ and i oso ordered a plate of fried wanton.. nice~~ heeheehee... i am a glutton..
random photo: cm looking at the rows and rows of cables which to me, all look the same.. but to him, its a world of fascination.. pretty much like how i felt when i see rows n rows of shoes.. my bf is a 100% computing nerd~!!

but the 100% nerd is oso the 100% sweetest man on earth who makes yummy blended drinks for me.. this one is a blend of strawberries n blueberries n yoghurt.. nice~~ and it's a pretty shade of purple too.. hehe..
wan to hear a joke? dat day we were juz wondering abt the various special dates if we wan to rom. and as he might be gg off to australia in june/july next yr, i jokingly said we muz get rom on 14th feb as it's v day, or 15 feb, his birthday.. otherwise no more special dates in the 1st half of the yr. u know wad he said?!?!?
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"still got one more special date! thaipussam lor.."

-_______-||| buay tahan!!!

ANYWAY

tml muz enjoy my last day of long weekend! after dat, muz brace myself for a long n ardous period.. looking forward to dec!!!

sigh.. havent been able to sleep well lately.. sometimes insomnia too.. very scary to lie awake in the night alone and nobody to talk to.. not to mention walking ard like zombie next day at work.. am i very stress? i guess so.. but aleadi not as stress as last time.. i find dat i am coping the stress better.. why do i still face insomnia? i tried noting down the dates and stuff i ate or done whenever i cant sleep.. but there's no pattern at all too.. my body is kinda messed up too.. periods all off track.. sigh..

i guess this job is just not suitable for me.. today another new AM said dat it would be frustrating for the sch if the AM leaves after going through so much training.. cuz we were talking abt posting to HQ after 2 yrs.. well.. yea it's bad for the sch.. but gotta think for myself right.. actualli.. right now everything's a blur.. dun realli know wad i'm gg to do in the near future. after i leave this place, where do i go? shd i travel while still young? or do i wanna study more? i realli got no idea.. sigh.. i guess i juz hope to find a job which i enjoy, and wont find a chore.. is dat so hard..?

random photos:

cm looking funny at me when i said i wanted to take a photo of him. haha.. he looked like a nerd in a library ma, carrying all those thick books. anyway, he really did borrow those books lo.. to study and use for his hyp.. jiayou jiayou~~ i know u've been feeling down n worried abt it lately.. but i'm very sure ur hyp will be the best! u can do it~~ but even if in the end u fail terribly and NUS kicks ur ass out, i will still love u la no worries
met up with zy n xm last last fri after work.. after a looong time.. xm juz changed her job.. makes me feel like changing as well but i shall not be influenced by others! >_<

today me n cm went for quite a walk.. first we went to check out the new fusionopolis (or smthg) at bouna vista.. cuz we heard abt it n cm's really curious abt it.. the building is done, but the shops are not open yet.. dun think it will be that soon. but the building itself looks very impressive! very big and tall..
as we were walking ard like tourists and looking, i saw some bangla workers doing some scrubbing on the tiles.. and it made me think.. actually, we have to thank them for their work.. this very building is created by their hands. we shouldnt treat them like dirt and should show them some appreciation! yes i know we pay them and it's their job.. but still, they put a lot of hard work into it.. the least we could do is show them respect.. without them, who can still look at another new skyscraper and say "Singapore is very fast at making new buildings leh!"

so.. everyone! pls respect the foreign workers! and stop asking the govt to keep them locked up in their dorms!! well maybe no one said it outright to lock them up but now they are building fences, putting shops so they won't have to come out at all.. feels like they are trying to reduce the reasons for them to go out.. they are just humans.. after a week of hard work, i'm sure they need to go out n relax.. they didnt choose to stay there oso.. if i am a bangla worker, i would choose a new dorm to be built in somewhere familiar like little india. but it's built next to the homes of some high income ppl who probably hated me and looked down on me.. u think they chose to be there??

anyway, after that, we went to have duck rice at a place behind NUS.. dunno wad road is it.. but it's after that famous winding road.. the duck rice is very nice!! den after dat, went to Hort Park to walk.. it's a very nice place to visit.. we saw this plant, its leaves will move when music is played!! we tot that it's bcuz they respond to sound waves la.. but not sure.. anyway, quite cute.. we played music form out hp and tried to make them move.. hehe..

after Hort Park, went Vivo.. walked abt hoping to buy smthg but nthg.. =( walked until our feet started to hurt and decided to go home..

wad a nice day!

ここにいるよ- I'm here

By 青山テルマ, a female jap singer.. if you heard of 大嘴巴's "永远在身边" and you liked it, u shd listen to the original jap version!!!! more touching and a bit sad too. but i love it!!! really really nice..



Baby boy I am over here Waiting and not going anywhere Just here waiting for you
You know dat I love you As such do not worry
No matter how far you go This heart of mine will not change
You should know what I want to say
I am waiting for you

i found the jap lyrics too.. cant really understand it.. but roughly it's abt this guy n girl who are in love, and the girl is waiting for the guy but the guy cant express himself or smthg.. test ur jap skills =p

ここにいるよ
詞曲：SoulJa
演唱：SoulJa&青山テルマ


Baby boy わたしはここにいるよ
どこもいかずに待ってるよ
You know dat I love you だからこそ
心配しなくていいんだよ
どんなに遠くにいても変わらないよこの心
言いたい事わかるでしょ?
あなたのこと待ってるよ
Ha……待ってるよ

Yeah不器用な俺 遠くにいる君伝えたい
気持ちそのまま言えずに 君は行っちまった
いまじゃ残された君はアルバムの中
電波でしか会えない日々 だけど見えないぜ君の微笑み
君のぬくもり 髪の香り こののどの渇きは
そのまま満たされずに 過ぎてく日々の中
なんだか君の面影ひたすら探した
君とよく歩いたあの道は 今俺だけの足音が響いていた
んなことよりお前の方は元気か?
ちゃんと飯食ってるか?
ちくしょう、やっぱ言えねぇや
また今度送るよ 俺からのLetter

鎌倉の砂浜で見た君の姿波にのまれた
君に言いたい言葉なんだかマジせつねぇ
男なのになんで…言葉出てこねぇや
覚えてますか?君と行ったカラオケの中
俺が入れた曲の言葉
モニターに浮かんだまま ほんとは
君に伝えたかった
君と二人きりで初めて待ち合わせをしたあの日
まるで偶然に会ったかのよう
にはしゃぎ微笑む君が忘れられないって
話かなりそれちまったがわかるよな?
俺が言いたい言葉
S**t残り書く場所がねぇや
ごめん 次は絶対に送るから
俺がもっと金持ちだったら
もっとまともな仕事をしてたら
もしもすべて犠牲にできたのなら 俺は絶対に君を...
だがPlease勘違いだけはすんな
君に寂しい思いはさせたくねぇが
忙しい中あんま話せねぇが
baby believeこれはall for our future
But 正直 今すぐ君と会いたい
今すぐ抱きしめてやりたい
昔 君が俺の隣で座ってた席には
もう誰もいないって...まぁ
そんな事はいいんだ 言いたいことはそんなんじゃねぇんだ
いまさらだが ずっと言いたかった
言葉を込め 送るUnsent letter
Baby girl わたしはここにいるよ
You know I love you だからこそ
今なら素直に言えるよ
I don't eva wanna let you go

today receive a letter.. gonna get $100 increase in salary! woo hoo so happy! suddenly got extra money..! haha.. they say it's a revision of my scheme.. and it's supposed to take place since july or smthg.. so they actually owe me $$.. lolz..

compared to some of my frens, my salary is actually not very good.. BUT! i am aleadi proud of myself for having come this far by myself.. i am not a smart person.. very blur.. and i used to complain why was i not born in a rich family, then i dun have to work part time or teach tuition.. but now, i think if i had been born in a rich family, i might not have tried as hard!

my tutee used to say he is just not as smart as others. when i told him i wasnt a smart person, i just work very hard, he laughed and say "no lo, u r just smart and things are easier for u"..

and then i told him "if others take 1 hour to understand a piece of hmwk, then u put in 2 hours. if others take 1 week to study for exams, then u take 2 weeks. whatever others do, u do double. that's how i do it. i am not clever like them, so i have to work harder than them."

even after working very hard, i am just an average student with average grades. but can u imagine if i hadn't tried, i would have scored even worse? anyway, i was not the only one, i had some frens who were even more hardworking than me, as their results were poorer. somehow we juz know dat the poorer your results, the harder you have to work. but a lot of students now just dun work as hard as we used to in the past.. i feel. could it be they are so pampered that they dun feel the need to do well for themselves? on the other hand, the parents are pushing their kids very very hard!

anyway, i am happy with the good news, and tml i shall enjoy my dinner date with xm n zy =) weekend is nearing~~

the F1 came n went.. on the 1st practice nite me n cm went to see the race tracks and we managed to see the cars zooming past us for a while.. kinda exciting, with the deafening noise and all.. even tho we are not really interested in F!, it was cool to be near the racing tracks n see the sport cars.. i mean, how many ppl in the world get to just stroll along the river after dinner n pop by to see some F1 cars racing ard? haha we were the lucky few =)

after abt 10 mins of watching cars zooming past us (so fast we couldnt even tell the diff between the cars), we got bored and decided to go off.. these things just doesnt interest us..

sometimes i feel we r the most boring couple ard.. we r just 2 average persons, and we like simple things like taking a walk after dinner, catching movies during weekends and playing games on our psp and computers when at home.

and then u see couples dressing in matching costumes (honestly.. like costumes. not talking abt couple tees or matching clothes..), some couples are wrapped ard each other so tightly that the girl look like she's crippled and the guy is the walking stick, some behaved like the world is their home, and the escalator is their bedroom (urgghh bleahhxxx..!!##@$%?)..

me n cm r just 2 persons holding hand, strolling along, catching nobody's attention and minding our own business..

at times like these, i cant help but wonder one thing...



".... am i very old aleadi or wad???" T___T


ANYWAY, i was on the topic of how time flies and F1 is aleadi over, it's Oct and soon it will be 2009. (ok maybe not so soon but soon-ish).. anyway i am so sleepy now i aleadi forgotten wad i started out to write abt. zzz.. maybe abt the new Wii that we bought.. or maybe abt how my boss is retiring and now he is the most amicable old folk i've ever met..