weird feelings.

these few days i've been cramming pictorial memories of the places i've been to n ppl i've met up with into my brain for a storage of memories I can tap on if i get homesick in aussie. ok mabe my camera did a better job den me la.. arghhh wad is this strange feeling of dread and sunkeness in the pit of my tummy? (no dun think i'm hungry) T_T

everyone's so envious of wad i am abt to do.. quitting my horrendous job n running off to a far away land, nv having to drag my unwilling self to the office every morning anymore.. but wad i realised is dat dragging myself to work has become some sort of solid ground in my life. after i stopped doing it, i felt realli great for a while but now, i'm juz wondering "wad else can i do?"

there are like, millions of things i wanna do.. tons of possibilities out there.. but will i find them? will i be able to catch hold of them?

okok enough wallowing in self-pity. i shd count my blessings. literally.

Count-my-blessings list
1. great sisters =)
2. family
3. i'm married (still hard to believe haha)
4. get to live overseas for a yr
5. am not born in africa

regarding this no. 5, the thought of adopting a child from places like africa and mongolia has crossed my mind more than once. when we r more financially stable, i'm so gonna do it! anyone interested to do it wif me? read online that u onli need to pay $50 or $60 each month and u can pay for a child's daily needs like food, clothing, medicine and education! any extra will go to helping the whole village too! but is it true?

6. i can wear my sis's winter cloaks so i dun need to buy any
7. i'm healthy (this obviously has to be at the top of the list but didnt think of it juz now haha)
8. all my loved ones r healthy too (replacing no. 7 to be top of the list)
9. i found a place which sells O.P.I at $30 for 2 bottles
10. i'm still young!

ok i feel better aleadi :D